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I sit here, thinking that I can do this. I can handle only being your friend. Most days I can, and it's brilliant. To have someone so supportive by my side is something I have always wanted.
But part of me will never forget how I felt, how I feel. How I pined over you almost every day. How I loved to imagine what it would be like to be held by you at night. How it actually felt when that happened. I don't know if I do still feel that way about you at all. Some days I do, some days I don't.
However, let's be perfectly fucking honest here. You are my Clark Kent. You keep saving my life, almost every day. Some days, I am so fine with being your Pete. That doesn't bother me at all. Other days, I would move heaven and earth to be your Lana. To experience that cute first romance I've never got the chance to have. Then there is the days where I get really lost in thought, and I end up being your Lois. But I know it's all a dream, and when I boil everything down, there is only one character I will ever relate to, and ever be. I kow she gets her happy ending in the end but for now, I'm stuck in the worst part of it along with her.
You're my Clark.
I'm your fucking Chloe.
Yeah, I'm taking ANOTHER crack at Youtube.
Going back on my antidepressants has boosted my motivation levels and seeing as I am on uni break I feel I need to do SOMETHING with my time. So if you could all go to www.youtube.com/user/piercethenicole and subscribe, and watch a couple of my old vids in prep for new ones, I would be happy as fucking Larry.
  • Mood: Hope
  • Listening to: We Don't Believe Whats On Tv- Twenty One Pilots
  • Watching: RuPauls Drag Race (TEAM VIOLET FOREVER)
Both literally and metaphorically. 
So inclement weather sent by the gods of "fuck this area in particular" may be the divine intervention that stops me seeing In Hearts Wake for the 4th time in the last 12 months. 
Not only that, but I have 6 assignments due next week, and do you think I've started them in between hospital and that? Nope. I'm over it.
  • Mood: Distressed
  • Listening to: Bandlands- in Hearts Wake
  • Watching: Ru Pauls Drag Race
So it's become glaringly obvious I can't make decisions for myself even when I should. Do I move to Brisbane or stay in Lismore? Do I transfer to a drama degree or stay in one I've come to hate on the off chance it helps me into music journalism? Do I leave Alex and everyone else behind just because I feel smothered here? 
Thats the part holding me back.
Alex told me no-one else should affect my decision but how can't they? I can't even bear the thought of leaving him and Emily and Ryan and Kathleen behind, or Anita and the rest of Media Club, or everyone in derby... 
But mainly Alex. How can I leave my strongest supporter, best friend, the yin to my yang behind just because I'm not 100% sure journalism is what I want to do anymore? I'm bawling my eyes out at the thought of it. I'm so lucky to have met him and everyone else here and even though we'd stay friends I can't help but think I'd be throwing that away by leaving. These decisions don't need to be made for a while but they still keep me up all night, stressing me out, making me think maybe death might be easier than making them.
  • Mood: Depressed
  • Listening to: St Patrick- Pvris
I think I finally got my pericarditis pain under control! now to fuck with my bad sleeping pattern I established because of it! 
Ok so I'm mainly here today to talk about someone very important to me. Most people, when I say this, just go "she's fucking talking about Alex again isn't she?" and you know what? Yes. Yes I am. 
Alex is literally the big brother I never had. Both he and I annoy the shit out of each other, hurt each other, fight about stupid shit and constantly get in each others faces but when it comes down to it we would both take a bullet for the other one. He talks me down and stops me from making dumb decisions, I calm him when he gets angry and let him vent whenever things build up. It's this kind of friendship that makes my heart burst (literally apparently).
It hit me again last night when I was just really disillusioned with life and did't quite get what I was doing here anymore and he just sat me down and made me think, write stuff down and just breathe.
Theres always that thing that says maybe your soulmate is just your best friend, and I 110% agree with this, because there is no way in hell I could say Alex isn't mine.
  • Mood: Happy Tears
  • Listening to: Left Swipe Dat- Our Last Night
Yeah, I'm taking ANOTHER crack at Youtube.
Going back on my antidepressants has boosted my motivation levels and seeing as I am on uni break I feel I need to do SOMETHING with my time. So if you could all go to www.youtube.com/user/piercethenicole and subscribe, and watch a couple of my old vids in prep for new ones, I would be happy as fucking Larry.
  • Mood: Hope
  • Listening to: We Don't Believe Whats On Tv- Twenty One Pilots
  • Watching: RuPauls Drag Race (TEAM VIOLET FOREVER)

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Nicole... duh.
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This one time a teacher in Year 5 told me I had a gift and to use it so now I post crap on the internet...? Anyway, I'm pretty angry a lot and sometime writing helps with that so yeah, come check that out.

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wanderersdaughter Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2014
thanks so much for the fav! it means a lot to me! 5 seconds hug 
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NicoleMeAtParamore Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2014  Student Writer
not a problem :D
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apsilpastille Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the Watch!!! :)
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NicoleMeAtParamore Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2013  Student Writer
not a problem :)
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Ah, fuck, thumbs don't work in comments... Anyway, something you might like: [link]
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